Thursday, May 21, 2009
Lily's adoption was finalized last week, along with her sealing on saturday to her loving family. I can't even go on to explain how much I love Lily's family. How they have opened their arms to me, and how they have been my friends when I don't know who to turn to. They amaze me.
School ended and I start work at Big surf.
I got into the program at ASU this summer. July 5 - August 7
We moved in into Gilbert. I have have been driving way more back and forth, here and there more then anybody should ever have to.
And I have turned to myself for a lot of things. I have found myself enjoying the drives by myself just to have some time to reflect. I have enjoyed that special time to just gather my thoughts and put myself in a good place. I have enjoyed listening to a little bit of slow, softer music, and found myself smiling.
Although there seems to be so much going on around me, I have found that time to myself keeps me calm, and I can continue carrying on.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
I walked through the motions of the last week.
Not sure if I could even handle it.
A few times I couldn't.
I had to take a drive to the store.
Stop my projects that I really want to finish.
Or drive away from where I wanted to be, just so I didn't have to see another.
I have drank Oreo shakes from Chee Burger. Eaten Ice cream cones.
And I have busied myself in other things.
But I know some how it's all going to become real.
Whether it's today or in a few days. It'll become real.
Knowing I can handle it is one thing.
But believing is another and right now, I am not sure I believe.